Two Weeks

Is it possible that my dad has been gone for almost two weeks? Time certainly continues to go on whether we are prepared or not. What we would like to know is why? Why did Dad have to get sick? If he had to get sick, why ALS? Why so sick so fast (though ultimately in ALS world that was a huge gift). One of my biggest questions throughout this process is why my dad? I mean, there are a lot of really bad people in the world. I don't understand why they get to stay here doing their really bad things and my dad is gone. Seems like we have plenty of abusers and murderers the world could live without.

Unfortunately, we don't get to know why while we are on this side of heaven. Or maybe not knowing why is a blessing. Certainly God's plan is too complex for my little brain to understand!!

Yesterday we went to soccer and to a movie. Had lots of laughs with Mom, then we all feel a little guilty for laughing so hard and in the next moment there are tears. But we are so thankful for the moments of laughter. They are healing moments, and Dad would want us to be as happy as possible.

My cousin told me to be still in the moments I need to hear my dad and if I am quiet and still, I will hear him. Gosh I hope so!