April 11, 2013

Dancing With a Limp


It is a year today…and I still miss you so much Bill.  No matter how happy I am for you that you are in paradise, I still haven’t been able to not wish that we could have had those retirement years that we tried to claim.  We almost made it.  We almost rode off into the sunset didn’t we?  Today is very sad for me and all of us, but we are going out tonight to celebrate your life, not your death.

 Erin sent me a quote the other day that I really like:

“You will lose someone you can’t live without, and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly—that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with the limp.”
Anne Lamott

I think this is where I am at now sweetheart…..I can never get over losing you, but you will live forever in my heart, and no one can ever replace you.  Thank you for our years together -- I am a better person for having been with you.  I hope that you died knowing how very much I loved you, and how proud I was to be your wife. I pray that you knew that.

I love you Bill, always have, always will.
Joan

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